Tom will be back in office for some training session w my Run people.. Finally some internet pls?? :D

lately, I've been feeling that a part of me is lingering somewhere else, in a far far away land, just not at work.

I was drifting from daze and work today and am totally listless and fidgety. Tried to bring myself back by talking and asking questions (in fact loads of stupid questions to my senior, which I think I could possibly easily figure it out if I have 'myself' back today).

I feel disgusted that I'm feeling incompetent. I don't want to make people feel that i'm incompetent. That's a terrible feeling.

I'm trying hard to learn but I feel stifled and like I wished I had more time to read thru things before doing it, but time is of the essence right now.

I wished I could breeze through the work like my senior does and how I wish it could happen NOW. But this is naive thought, because everything comes with hard work and experience.

I can only wish time flies by faster so I can be more confident of myself at work and know what I am doin.

Oh God, I need strength.

This has got to be the best concert I've seen!! (altho the last one I caught was Jay's concert back in 2002 :P)

He is multi-talented and so handsome!!! *swoons* and he really is a brilliant musician plus the whole theme of 'chink-ed out' was cleverly portrayed during the concert, with mixes of chinese opera and hip hop R&B in it!!

My lousy commentary really cannot justify the whole experience of being at the Indoor Stadium and hear him crooned to hits like 流泪手心，唯一，写一首简单的歌, Kiss Goodbye and Forever.... and the list can go on!

He totally wowed us with switching in between musical instruments like a snap of the fingers. He played the guitar, piano, violin, drums and er-hu!! OMG he's really damn talented or what!!

I still remember when I heard him sang Kiss Goodbye, I could feel my heart melting away!! (I better not let MB read this *grinz*)

So glad I was able to attend this concert to hear what top quality music is like. HURRAH!!!

王力宏是盖世英雄！！！

this is the song I hear for the past 3 days on the billboard of OUB Plaza. Kind of aptly described my disgusting job of "no-day-no-night"

Was quite pissed off with my manager when I received late notice on Tue evening about my sudden booking back to BNP for 3 days of vouching. I would appreciate if you could communicate with me first before sending the email to the planner and cc me to 'notify' me. That is not communicate ok, more like a COMMAND.

Anyway, despite how reluctant I was to go back on the job, I had no choice but to do it. Vouching seemed easy, even though it's for almost 200 samples. But i was wrong, it takes time to understand exactly what I'm vouching and ensure I was doing the right thing to address the risks. (Pardon me for the technicalities, I can't be bothered to summarize in lay-man terms)

Had been staying late till almost 9+, 10pm and I can really feel the toll on me. It should be some brainless work, but somehow I felt as if I'm using more brain power than I had when I was preparing for exams. Client was unhappy of pulling out tonnes of files for me and not to mention that they were having antoher 2 groups of regulatory inspect and internal auditors at the same time as well. I would be pissed off myself for having so many buggers.

MB said i'm too pampered already. Without fail, for every job that I had so far, I will always have something to complain about (wouldn't you). Everything is not perfect what, complaining is just a way to vent out my grumbles and frustration, rather than bingeing or getting all depressed. But then again, I quite agree with his analysis, I guess I'm really quite sheltered in the past and now is only the BEGINNING of everything. I'm so scaared... :S:S:S

And i learnt a very impt survival rule yesterday from my senior: No matter what, don't pour your heart out to people whom you're not close with. It may sound sad to hear that, but I can't agree more that this is really the way it works now when u're in this whole shit altogether. You duno if those you think you can trust will backstab you behind ur back or make use of you as a tool to get back at someone they dislike. This is a dog-eat-dog world, nothing else.

I wonder if they have a book on the Dummy Guide of Survival in the working world. Or maybe I can start accumulating my experiences and publish one when i'm 50.

On a sidenote, i think me and hOi have telepathy. I was jus finished reading her blog where she mentioned that I should call her and ask about her eventful day, my hp rang and voila! It was Ms Hoi. Talk about coincidence man!!! But it was really good to hear from and bitching about each other's lousy jobs and the planner. Hah :D I guess we all need such friends to relieve us some 'pain' from work.

A happier note, it's Lee Hom's concert @ Indoor Stadium tonight!!!! Hv been waiting for 2months since the tix were bought!! After that it's supper the guys and MB at Bt Timah!!! Can't wait for that too, so long nv see each other liao, I think it's gonna be another bitching session!!! muahahaha :P

That's all from me now. This entry is to show everyone that I'm still alive and kicking.

Hallelujah!

Last Friday, saw The Run (aka the batch of new A1s) gather together again for steamboat and drinks!!

Somehow it seemed like there's loads of activities lined up until Christmas 2006!! Boy am I glad to be part of this group of fun-loving peeps!

I suggested having steamboat at Chuan Yi Pin, beside Icon Bugis. Heard from Roy that it wasn't too bad (but he said it wasn't as nice on his 2nd visit). We chose half Ma La and half herbal chicken soup base. I must say their Ma La really tasted sucky!! x_x It was too spicy and peppery that I can't taste anything at all!! Best part was they refilled the soup base for 2 different kinds of flavours! And it cost us about $20 each for the not-so-nice dinner. I bet there are other better steamboats around... mebbe I shud try the famous 天天火锅 at Tan Que Lan Street next time. :)

After which, we adjourned to Labryinth, this pool-pub place opp Sunshine Plaza (got the famous wanton mee stall also) for some drinks. It was quite dark and crammed, caused it was packed with smokers and drinkers. Oh well, it's the company that matters. We opened 2 bottles of Absolut and a bottle of Jim Beam. Some groups of us played finger-guessing games that were totally hilarious; I sang 2 songs with Theresa (we waited darn long for it!) and some were quite sleepy/drunky and just rested on the nice comfy sofa.

It was good night of hanging out, what with all of us receiving our 1st pay for our first full-time job!!