sometimes I really felt quite upset when i can't even speak more than a sentence to my brother.

He's really busy, multi-tasking with a part time financial planner job and coping his final year of studies.

But sometimes, I really hope he could just squeeze some time out for me and my parents.

I realised that whenever he has free time off his work and school, he would immediately go out and hang out with his friends.

yah, Friends than Family.

I can't blame myself for blaming him coz seriously, sometimes I feel that he deserved to be blamed.

Or could I blame the humane genetics of male species? I think most males are sort of, ya noe, more withdrawn from the family, and they're less emotionally attached to their loved ones. Is it true?

My parents are understanding that he could take care of himself now and proud that he's doin so well in his job, but i think deep down inside, my parents hoped he could have stayed and accompanied us more often.

Mum always comfort herself that when her children grow up, they're bound to leave them one day. It's not as if I don't agree but i feel that no matter how high and far u fly, there's always a special place in ur heart for ur family isn't it?

i don't know.

I find myself becoming like this jealous girlfriend of my bro. hah. i find it embarrassed to say but i would find myself throwing tantrums or simply ignore him when i felt that he has neglected me. I guessed he realised it and would somehow chat with me for awhile, asking me abt my school and stuff but i find that he's trying too hard.

I think my boyfriend or friends are even more concerned about me.

I envy some of my friends who have such close relationships with their siblings. Isn't it nice when u know that you have someone at home whom u can always count on and share things with?

I wish my brother realises that this kiddo sister of his really hopes for his attention sometimes.

I wish he knows.

Somehow.

Sooner or later.

I hope.

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