Friday, August 20, 2004 @ 9:32 pm
I used to have this little fantasy, that I would want to get into a relationship with a bad boy.
Definition of a 'bad' boy:
Someone who's unconventional, radical, likes to do things that not normal ppl would do or condone (not like drugs or any crimes).
Just living out their own dream, doin things they like, not caring about how others may view them, not caring about how the others judge them.
A bad boy like this. Plus a ear stud, some tattoos, rides a bike, heck care about life, just wanna live their life to the fullest...yadda yadda..;)
I guess every girl has this kinda of little dream/fantasy, to be with someone that's totally way off your contemplation and totally rocks your world.
Don't you? ;)
I had a major crush on my cousin's boyfriend's brother when I was in secondary school. He's the kind of 'bad' boy that I would want to be with. Well, just for the sake of the kick and spice in life.
He's cool, tall, a little skinny physically, smokes, plays pools, did badly in school and stuff.. Which is the total opposite of me then. I was this everyday convent school girl, who goes to school and go back home everyday diligently, do my homework, study for tests and yearn to be with the
kind of 'bad' boy you see on tv. hah.
And on the Christmas of 1999, I met him.
It was like a 'love at first sight' kind of attraction. Prolly coz he fits almost perfectly into my description of a 'bad' boy.
At the age of 15, I was totally besotted.
But as you can see, nothing came out of it because what's in a fantasy will always remain as it is. We came from different backgrounds and totally different mindsets.
I'm just a plain old next-door-girl and he, a school drop-out and heavy smoker.
Can't imagine the image of both of us together. hah.
I even wrote a love letter to him. gosh! can't believe i actually did that. All thanks to my cous who was 'encouraging' me to express my feelings for him.
He, of course, rejected me. I guess he felt that he would only ruin me if we were together.
I wonder where he is now.
I'd like to be a 'bad' girl someday. You know, skipping school for a week and go on a short holiday by myself, drinking beer in the morning, riding a bike with micro-minis and black leather boots...
woohoo! that would never happened, I'm sure of it. ;)
But I think everyone should let themselves go once in a while. Doin things that are unconventional, that challenges the normalcy in society.
Just do whatever you like and don't care what others think. For awhile.
I guess you would find back the youth that you once yearned.
Never mind if you're 20 or 50.
It's your life.
Just live it the way you want it.