Sunday, August 01, 2004 @ 12:33 pm
I had a very long and sad dream last night...it was so real that when I woke up, i thought it really did happened to me...*shudders*
I dreamt that I was preparing for my own wedding when i realised that my groom had become someone else's husband!! (This may seem nothing to some of you, but it was really very real, as if it were my future!! :( ) Gosh, i was even invited to their wedding and forced to witness the entire wedding. And during the wedding, I was called to sing a duet with the groom and initially, I was still trying to act I'm okay and totally cool about it, when suddenly, they flashed powerpoint slide show of pictures that we used to take together!!! oh man, it's so real that i began to bawl and cried my heart out....i was really very upset and i couldn't believe what was goin on!!!
And later I rushed to the toilet and suddenly i dreamt that i began to take a shower (???) and was wiping soap all over my body, while I asked a guy fren of mine to wait outside the toilet for me, holding on to my handphone. And i remembered I called my parents to come and fetch me from the wedding place but they haven't arrived yet...... And i continued to cry and cry, and can't believe wat was happening and then I was told that the groom had prepared to read a speech which was about me, and I din wan to go but somehow people came and ushered me once more back to the ballroom or the stage....and I could hear him say all those things we used to do and stuff and I couldn't control and cried again...could feel my heart beating faster and like all wrenched up and stuff....it was really very very real...
I really wonder what does this dream mean or issit just a dream? But like they used to say, 日有所思，也有所梦...could it be becoz I was feeling scared or threatened now?? I really duno....But it was the longest dream I had and it lasted from the time i closed my eyes to sleep until this morn when mummy came to wake me up!!! Gosh, and I felt so tired when I wake up coz when u dream, your brain is still supposedly still functioning and not resting, so that's y when u dream, u don't get to sleep at all!!! sheesh.
I hope this isn't some kind of premonition or something because it's really too real and I don't think i can handle such a blow...
I know you love me alot.
I know you'll always will.
Thank you my love...