Friday, February 06, 2004 @ 9:48 pm
i din really believe that cutting hair is therapeutic, but i think i do now ;P
went to west mall to get my hair done jus now....was thinking if i should cut my hair short once and for all.....been having long hair since sec 4, abit bored of the usual hairstyle already.
felt a bit rebellious also, so i tot, wat the heck, jus cut it short!
and so my hair is both dark brown (abit like black liao but natural look lar) and short. Ugin saw my hairstyle coz we met for dinner. he jus had this kinda surprised look on his face. he din wan me to cut it short initially when I sounded him the idea, but i decided to do sth different, make some radical change to my otherwise bored to death life. :P
I really feel much fresher with loads of hair gone and i feel lighter, more chirpy. THink it's really therapeutic. Felt so much better after the hair cut, was feeling so blue and down for the rest of the day before that.
I've also set my mind to start on a journey in search of my true identity. Let's jus called it "In Search for Shu". :) I jus suddenly haf this feeling that i don't have my own identity like that. Like i belong to something and someone but I jus don't haf a specific identity that stands out and let others know that, "Hey that's Shu!". And so I decided to give myself until graduation to find ME. yesh the real ME, the ME that I'm satisfied with and that I'm contented with. I guess it's not gonna be easy, but I jus wan to find myself. I hope i can. No, I know i can. :)
I duno wat's there to do in order to find ME, but I'll try my best to do that.
in search of me......